I have good news and bad news.

good news: Timber finally got to have his tumor surgery - he did wonderful the tumor ended up being a little over one pound (I know it's insane) but he's healing beautifully and he gets his stitches out on the 17th updates for him and pictures of him can be found on the instagram page WolfPangolinPictures on Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/wolfpangolinpictures/

bad news: The universe decided to hit me with as much bad luck as possible all at once. to long didn't read at the very bottom
my fridge is going to hell, wouldn't be the end of the world if it wasn't raising my electric bill that is normally around $23 a month in the summer to $110. plus my washer is taking longer and longer to wash clothes and not only do I try to avoid washing stuff as long as possible which let me point out when you barely have any clothes isn't easy to try an only do one load a month when you don't have enough clothes to last you a month it's a complete pain in the ass. (an before someone asks why not go to a laundry mat or w/e I'm not paying gas money to go to a lundry mat to get cockroaches and crabs thank you very much. which I'm not even sure how far you'd have to drive to get to one that's not infested with Something that isn't a private one for apartment residents only. so like $50-$80 in gas money every time to do laundry doesn't sound plesant to me.. at All... I'd wash them by hand if my wrists weren't so bad and my skin wasn't so weird, but I already have a rash I can't get rid of that I'm about ready to skin myself alive but I'm getting off topic.)
this was also water bill month which was $124. ontop of the $110 electric bill.. and I had just put down $1,000 in total for Timber's tumor surgery. plus my rent and internet bill and yada yada yada.... I only fucking make a little over $700 a month in total sense where going by month because of the bills. (I can already hear the, if you pay rent why not make the landlord pay for shit) because my uncle yes my uncle is my landlord buys used worthless crap to replace things and I get really sick of turning around and having it literally be Worse then the thing that was Dying or broken or it literally dying or breaking within a few months of getting it and it literally taking him months and or YEARS to fix things. I wish that was a joke but NO it literally took him THREE years to fix the knobs on my kitchen sink. I waited because I didn't give a fuck cause I used a pliers to turn it off and on cause I'm a savage and don't care and wanted to prove a point but it took THREE years and they don't even match he literally took three years then got the cheapest shittiest option that looks like crap (which personally I don't care about looks I was using fricking pliers and a knob is nicer then pliers) But for it taking three years you think he could have at least gotten matching ones. He does this shit for his own house to btw. He bought a hot water heater for his own house for $40 and it leaks like hell but OMG HE ONLY HAD TO PAY $40... but it leaks like fucking Hell... glad it's his house and not mine, but I feel bad for my aunt sense her bedroom is IN the basement aka right where that leaky fucking hot water heater is <_<... but at the same time she's been such a royal bitch lately I don't feel That bad about it.
an ontop of those bills I still have to pay to get Timber's stitches removed which they don't accept payments you Have to pay in full after the appointment. The vet got ripped off to many times so I get it, just royally sucks for low income people, but I completely get it.
I wont lie I don't have enough money for everything What So Ever. SO What I have to do is I have to turn my Electricity off for two months September and October and then turn them back on for November so the pets and pipes don't freeze and the internet will be off from September till I'm able to pay the bills up, buy a new fridge, probably a used washer sense you can usually find pretty much brand new washers around here for like really good prices cause people just like constantly buy new washers for some reason?.. like one a year or one every other year. (if your someone that does this can you explain this to me I would Love to know why like if it's just a I have the money so I do it thing or if there's a legit reason like inform me cause this confuses the Fuck out of me but I've always been super low income so it just boggles my brain)

note: I have had to live with no lights before, quite a bit as a kid actually. so yeah I am fully aware of things like Yeah I know the fridge wont work it doesn't barely work as it is right now. I am aware that means no hot water. I have a gas stove and already know how to light the top with a lighter cause the starter went out of it like two years ago and that's the only part of your gas stove that's actually electric other then the clock which seems to confuse the living shit out of people (like this is also how I keep my house warm when the fucking lights go out in the middle of god damn winter so we don't die like boiling a pot of water lets off some heat at least instead of NO heat. just wish the fucking oven worked but the oven hasn't worked in like.. fuck it didn't work when my mom still lived here so like 8 or 9 years? maybe more?) but I'm starting to ramble again so lest wrap it up like I Know how life is without lights. it's fucking miserable. I don't have any other options though.

TLDR: Turning my Electricity off for September and October and turning my internet off from September Until I have money to pay for a bunch of stuff because I have no other options.