So after AC, I was caught in a funk and feeling rather depressed over the loss of a friend (I cut the ties to save myself the aggravation of watching her make really stupid mistakes and attacking me when trying to help her). I was starting to fall for her too, feeling all fluttery when we were hanging out around the convention, and I actually broke down in tears after I dropped her off at home. But, after her witnessing the effects of her boyfriend's emotional abuse, and finding out it was the same abusive f*** I ripped into previously for putting her down right in front of me, I can't stay silent about them getting back together, and she doesn't want me saying anything bad about him, so ending contact was the only solution. I just hope she grows a brain and leaves him before he physically assaults her and her father again.

During that time, my mind wandered to my marriage, and how it hasn't been fair to my wife with how my emotions have been all over the place these past couple years, going from wanting her to anyone BUT her. I didn't want to think of the "D" word, but it did come up once or twice in my musings. She deserves someone who will love her with all of their heart, and I should be free to find someone who makes me truly happy, that I love with all of my heart.

After a couple of friends cornered her, one I had talked to and the other had screencapped my locked Twitter account, Kat and I talked about the situation, and we decided it would be for the best if we go our separate ways and end our marriage now, instead of keeping it going and waiting for us to start fighting. This way, we can walk away as friends. We're still going to be living together, since we have a large credit card bill to pay down from Anthrocon and neither of us have anywhere to go, but we'll be roommates instead of a couple for the time being.

Where we go from here, we're not sure, but I suppose we'll take it day by day, and see how things go. I don't have anyone else in mind to get together with, since the few I have feelings for wouldn't work out in some ways or others, so I'll probably stay single for a while.