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Whoops by JaxxBlackFox

How did I forget about this site? Seriously. I know things have been totally insane lately but that's just silly.

Oh well. Not like I have any art to post anyway. I haven't drawn a thing since March. I know there are a lot of reasons for it. Working two jobs, having no time to myself when I do get a day off, stress caused by owed art, and frankly the fact that the "fandom" isn't really my own thing anymore in my mind.

I've been followed into it by someone who isn't even an artist, and they're more popular than I AM, and they don't even draw or write stories. They just get art drawn for them by people who are artists. Makes it all feel rather pointless and frankly, a waste of what little time I have. And the dismal reception I got at FE didn't help. I felt like a ghost. Nobody knows who I am anymore. I guess because there are SO many new people coming into it who are more talented, and far, far more productive.

Makes me want to go back to the old days in the Ecco fandom, or Pokemon fandom when it was just me and my artist buds all jammin' and geeking out together, and everybody knew each other. (And I didn't have a shadow following me around, sucking away my enthusiasm.)

Sorry for the vague ramble. I just needed to get it off my chest. Even though I know it doesn't ultimately matter....

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    RedCoatCat

    I don't think it's the fact there are new people, it's the fact the internet has a short attention span.

    If you don't post regularly people forget usernames but there are people that will wait through the dry periods to see new work. If I could be an internet hermit and just socialize with those I want to talk to... I would.. I don't get much joy in posting my art these days.

    I miss when this community was smaller and everyone knew of each other like on Yerf, VCL LJ etc... As well as stupid fandoms we use to goof around in. Maybe it was because we were younger or maybe it was just more personable. despite the flame wars I miss LJ being a massive art community of its own.

    Don't judge by conventions, cons are made up of a lot of younger people, people that don't browse the net etc Canadian cons are also on the small side. I've shown your badge you've made me to people and they know who you are.

    I miss seeing your work but I also understand your life is pretty stressful right now. When life is stressful it's hard to produce artwork, especially work you feel is put on display, sometimes for me I just sketch and never scan it. Getting back the joy of creating for yourself which is why all artists do this after all. :P

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    JaxxBlackFox

    Yeah, I know... :/

    I need to find one of my sketchbooks (ya know, the nearly empty ones), and just try to get back into doodling again. Maybe it'd help.