Sorry in advance for the long journal, this is something that's really on my mind right now.

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It's kinda funny how you can talk to people online, talk to them often in fact but then.. You've never met them in person, even if you've met in passing, not realizing who people are.

You can go by never knowing who your friends are and end up standing there lonely, feeling a little confused..

Silly realization but man, I barely know anyone in person. Not everyone talks to me, fursuiting or drawing.. I'm just that girl who turns up and sits in the corner looking awkward and everyone who doesn't know me, avoids me..

In person I'm unknown but online everyone seems to know me. I don't know if it's me. I'm not exciting enough or something?

I'm incredibly socially awkward, I usually end up standing on my own at meets or any social event, feeling shy and a little out of place because I really struggle with talking to people. Even saying hi can be hard for me, I will freeze up and find it impossible to start conversations and often look like a wild animal confined in a human body.. Always looking for a place to hide away >.>

For anyone who has met me in person, I'm really sorry if I seemed stuck up or aloof for avoiding eye contact or not talking.

My biggest worry is that people think bad of me because of my awkwardness, I really do love to meet new people. I just find it so difficult in social situations and I tend to hide a lot because I feel so insecure.

I even worry that my fiance's family thinks this about me.

Grah, I really think it's stupid that I can't even make myself be social, it's something I really hate about myself and makes me feel abnormal :/

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This is something I want to put into words because as you've read.. this is the only place I feel that I can.

So if any of you guys ever want to meet me in person I really do apologize in advance but the best way to start a conversation would be to talk about art or animals. They are the subjects I am confident talking about.. yep I'm so boring :/

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Also thank you very much guys for talking to me in my last journal, because of that I have had a chance to talk to some of you and I feel a lot better about communicating with you guys, you are all really awesome and I wish I could give you all a hug <3

Thank you all so much for being so lovely

~Indi