Yeah, putting it bluntly, I KNOW I know, I usually detest these kinds of journals, and I rail against people who seem to post them twice a week. Though I feel I'm allowed to post a journal like this once a year if ever.

Anyhow, I'm not entirely sure, but last night I was feeling kind of off. I didn't sleep very well last night, and I spent most of my morning doing practically nothing. I tried playing a bit of Borderlands 2, but I just wasn't really feeling it. Sometimes I feel like I'm invisible. People talk to me, but it feels more like they're talking at me regardless of their intent. I have this feeling of anguish in my gut that I wish I could pull out physically. I try to reach out to some people I haven't talked to in a while, and they don't respond. I realize they might not realize it, nor do I doubt it isn't their intent, but I feel like I'm being ignored whilst their other friends seem to have good timing and they get to interact while I sit quietly in the corner and watch. The problem I have is I let myself be alienated and it only makes things worse.

I'm not sure what I'm trying to say, but I'm just not feeling right. Chances are the majority of the people I'm trying to reach out to aren't even going to see this. I guess I'm trying to say it would be nice if more people would reach out to me instead of me trying to reach out to them because I'm fucking tired of trying.