am back from the short hiatus. needed just 1 day away from posting :D calmed my anxiety down by playing games i enjoyed and watched bob ross. now that my mind's clear more photography and drawings will now resume :D. didnt wanna do either when i wasnt focused at the time :). one positive thing is my anxiety is so much easier to manage than it used to when it was much worse back than. just need to start giving myself a day break or so anytime it happens again that way i can come back to doing everything i enjoy with a fresh new start with clear thinking :D