Unfortunately, I don't really exercise. I'm rather thin in real life, but I'm also pretty out of shape. When I run hard for like 5 minutes, my lungs feel like they are burning from the constant inhaling and exhaling of air. Rushes of cold air can also make my teeth feel as though they are hurting.

I don't meditate either. I have a very difficult time keeping still. Not to mention, my thoughts have a tendency to go a little "all over the place." It's for that reason that I have trouble focusing during lessons or other things. (My parents suspect that I might have ADHD, but I'm not going to confirm nor deny that possibility unless I am properly diagnosed.)

I do however listen to music to act out my imagination in my head until I'm bored. Sometimes it inspires my drawings. But usually at night, when I have a desire to relax, I play an ASMR video, or a long Documentary, and listen as I fall asleep.

Lastly, as for the medication thing, I completely agree with what you said. I would know because I've taken medication on a routinely basis before when I was younger. My mental issues were a lot worse back then. When I got older, I decided that I didn't need to make medication anymore, and wanted to improve my mental state on my own.

Nowadays it's a lot harder for me to maintain a consistent schedule of taking medication daily, but I do take it sometimes. It usually doesn't help because I end up forgetting to take it the next day. It's ironic how my mind is so obsessed with consistency, yet I'm terrible when it comes to actually being consistent.

Thank you for the encouragement and the advice. I guess I still haven't fully wrapped my head around the fact that I don't always have to be active on social media, or the fact that I'm not the only person in the world who has these problems. Maybe I need a break.

It's almost like I'm being controlled by the internet, and I've somehow become willingly subservient to it. I know it sounds dramatic, but that's kind of what social media does. When you've got nothing else to do, the internet just sucks you in. And sometimes, it drags you into a metaphorical cesspool of even more depressing emotions. And it causes me to feel jealous of other people's art-skill. But I think the main problem is just me and my insecurities, something that only I can fix.

Again, thank you for reading this journal, and commenting.