tl:dr at bottom

going through your old journals is a good way to to hate yourself, or to recognize how much you have changed.

i held a lot of flawed views, i didn't have a lot of worldly experience and i was making due with what i had.
i held some under the surface sexist and lgbt phobic views and shitty views on equality... and it shouldn't have taken nearly kicking the bucket to examine said views.

also i started talking to a trans friend about things back in 2016 and came to the conclusion, i'm more than likely transgendered.
the more trans folks i talked to the more i found people i identify with on some level i didn't really understand before.

so hi I'm Dee...or DeeDee if you prefer.

and who i was before is essentially dead, because i no longer... recognize that person? it feels like a completely different person and i don't know how to explain that better than that.

i mean i'm still confused as fuck about a lot of things regarding who i am, but eh.

TL;DR

i'm gonna transition into a lady
i'm sorry for any dumb shit views i held in the past, i was a kid with no world experience who thought thew knew more than they actually did, also the me from that time is dead :>