I'm doing fairly good. I'm active with my life more than I've been in ages, however, it really doesn't feel like it's that much.
I guess I could say that I'm stuck? I mean I'm doing okay, physically. But mentally is another thing entirely; depression amongst other things has been difficult. Feels like I'm drowning, and when I can finally get above water, I don't know where to go. like I'm blind, or there's a heavy fog. I could be very near the shore or in the middle of the ocean for all I know. Add in that I'm like a car out of gas. I have no mental energy to go anywhere, regardless of what it is I need. The biggest issue of all; major avoidance tendencies. Like trying to do anything I need to do is like sticking my hands into a fire. I withdraw so hard I get whiplash. So to speak. Toss some memory issues in there, like dazed and suddenly I forget what I was doing... and I have a big tangled mess that is my life and self.
So I'm just doing the best I can regardless of this. Lookin' after the little one, being exhausted every day, but it keeps me busy. Making sure I do the basics to take care of myself. Not sure what else to do with myself, or my life. I feel lost, without purpose. No direction or desire for.
I suppose that's why that one song I call my soul song, Mayday by Thefatrat, really speaks volumes to me. That and since it's stylized for outer space... yes. Please.
Anyways. I'mma do something else.