am incredibly nervous to finally write this journal.

This October, I am going to be completely restructuring how I do art on the internet.

For the past few years, I've been very... Unhappy, with where I am as an artist. I've been struggling to enjoy myself like I used to. Drawing used to be something I had an energy to do, but now it's very difficult for me to find that energy. Things like vore don't bring me as much enjoyment as they used to, and that absolutely breaks my heart. I feel like I'm just doing art, rather than creating art. This has left me feeling incredibly burned out, sad, and longing for the days of old. When I create while I feel like this, the quality of my work suffers a noticeable dip. That is unacceptable to me.

This unhappiness comes from the fact that I have been doing commissions non-stop for the past 5+ years. I've been trapped in a very unhealthy cycle in order to pay my bills and survive. This has sucked the joy out of art for me, and I desire nothing more than to escape. I want to make art something I love again, and I've been doing everything I can to make that possible.

I tried to get a job in order to pay my bills, so I wouldn't be dependent on commissions. However, after getting that job, I quickly discovered I have a crippling anxiety disorder. I had horrible panic attacks that rendered me unable to work, so I had to quit in order to protect myself, my co-workers, and the customers. I've been seeing a counselor to try and fix this problem, as well as getting medication for my depression. Unfortunately, these things will take a long time to fix, and it doesn't look like I will be cured for a long time. Basically, I am unable to work right now, so the only possible source of income I have is my art.

You can probably see the problem I'm faced with. I need to pay my bills, but I don't want to be burned out by doing commissions constantly.

After thinking about this for a long time, I have come up with a solution:

Beginning in October, the new phase of my life will begin, and many things will be changing:

PATREON

My Patreon will be greatly expanded. I will be posting a journal before the beginning of October with more details. Stay tuned!

COMMISSIONS

I will be taking fewer commissions to reduce my burnout. When I do accept commissions, I'll only do 1 or 2 at a time. I will also be a lot more strict on what I will or will not draw. I will not be accepting a commission that I have no desire to draw. I will also be doing more themed commission streams, as I do enjoy doing those. Accepting ideas I am more excited about allows me to be more motivated to work on it, and therefore produce art of a higher quality. I desire nothing but the best for all of you, I don't want to produce something of lesser quality. These changes will hopefully make it so that every commission I do is much better and more enjoyable.

GAMES

This has been a huge debate for me. My dream in life is to be a game designer. I wanna make video games for people to enjoy. However, with the recent changes Steam has made, putting up an indie game on their platform just isn't really viable for me anymore. So I've decided to focus on the furry community, and to make games for our various niches. I plan on making games that are not only fun to play, but also satisfying as fetish content. I plan on doing stuff that hasn't been done before, and I really hope you all enjoy it. More information will be coming soon about specific games. I can also say that the development of these games will be heavily tied to Patreon, as it will help motivate me to get them done faster.

PRODUCTS

Plushies, Pins, Prints, Mouse Pads, Dakimakuras, stickers, I'm gonna do it all. I am going to build up a wide variety of physical and digital goods for all to enjoy, that I will be selling online as well as at conventions. Want a plushie of Sarah Vixen? That may be a thing I plan on doing.

COMICS/INTERACTIVES

I wanna tell stories about my characters. I want to share with you the worlds I have inside my head. I will be making comics and interactives in order to do so, fleshing out my cast of characters to actually be... well... characters.

As you can see, I've got a lot planned. I probably missed some details, so if you have any questions please feel free to ask. I am very very nervous about moving away from dependency on commissions. I'm curious about what you guys think, as I just want to make sure I'm making you all happy. PLEASE let me know what you think. I hope that in the months to come, I can make high quality art for you to enjoy. I love you all so much and I cannot thank you enough for the endless support you give me. Thank you so much for reading <3