Sorry Kitty...

I have been extremely childish and have caused a lot of shit over the past year or two.

With that, I may have single handedly destroyed everything I held dear to myself, including my mateship with Mixy.

It is with shaky hands and a heavy heart that I write this...

I regret my own beahvour, and am deeply sorry for all the shit I have caused.

I love Mixy to tears, and now fear I have pushed him away from me entirely.

I can only strive now to learn from my mistakes, and to try to better myself...

While I love Mixy, I do not expect him to forgive me for all the shit I have caused him, nor do I expect to be accepted back into his arms. That wolf is a saint, and while I would love him to be my saint, I do not expect it.

While I have been a complete ass lately, I will continue to live with Mixy until 1 of 2 things happens:

1. He pushes me out and makes me leave him completely - which I would not blame him for doing.

2. He forgives me and pulls me back into his arms - which I currently do not expect.

During this time, I plan to strive to better myself so that if Mixy does forgive me - I can be better to him and for him. If he does not, then I will stive to better myself for the next person I am with.

I will need your support, forgiveness, and help during this hard time for me.

And I do pray that I can be forgiven by the wolf I am dearly in love with, for I long to be in his arms.

I am so very sorry...