Probably not what you want to hear, but really, that all depends on you. You have far more control (and strength) than you give yourself credit for. But, that is often how it goes. Easier to blame it on something beyond our control. Absolves us from any responsibility or accountability. Why even try if it's beyond us, right? Thing is, it's not. At the very least, not everything is beyond us. There ARE things we can do, steps we can take. I know it ain't easy. I struggle with it, too. It's real easy to just give up and settle in for a miserable existence I can complain about endlessly until everyone's sick of hearing me. But at some point you've got to make a choice. Which is more important to you, the familiarity of constantly having something to complain about, or living life, making friends, and moving forward? In short, unfamiliar territory, things we're not so used to, things that require effort, things that mean taking risks and yes, maybe even falling on our faces and having to drag ourselves back to our feet. But it's worth it. It's worth the risk. It's worth the pain. It's worth the chance of failure because let's be pragmatic about this: if you never try you only guarantee failure. No one ever succeeded by sitting in a corner bitching about how much it might hurt to fail.