"Normal" is just a setting on the dryer, my friend. The simple truth is if one were to sit down and analyze every human being on the planet through the lens of psychiatric study, they would determine that everyone in the world has no less than three mental disorders to some degree or other. "Normal" is a fictitious concept. "It is no measure of health to be well-adjusted to a profoundly sick society." - Jiddu Krisnamurti. You're not insane, bro. You have struggles. You face obstacles that not everyone else can comprehend. That does not make you weak. That does not make you insane. It makes you human. It's frustrating and disheartening when people try to belittle, negate, or dismiss something you struggle with. Despite all three of them having studied psychology at one point or another neither my parents nor my brother will acknowledge that my depression, anxiety, and executive dysfunction are even real issues, much less issues I face on a daily basis. It is what it is. Some people choose to be blind to what is happening to those close to them, always telling themselves "this is something that happens to other people" and never allowing themselves to imagine that "other person" might be sitting right next to them.

The only advice I can give you is to try to get out of your own head, if that makes sense. As Ernest Holmes noted, "Life is a mirror and will reflect back to the thinker what he thinks into it." The mind is a powerful thing. The more you think on something, and the more you obsess about it, the more it consumes and controls you. The more you say things to yourself like "I'm insane" or "I'm just a fuck-up that's no good to anyone," the more you will subconsciously make that your reality. It only clouds your mind further and blinds you to those who see more in you than you give yourself credit for. I'm not saying this as any kind of condemnation, Lord knows I need to get out of my own head. I'm saying this to you as a friend and as someone who's gone through something similar. I want to help you avoid certain pitfalls and "road hazards" I've encountered along that path.

As always, keep your chin up and keep at it. It won't be easy, but that doesn't mean you can't do it.