I have been getting anxious again. I don't know why. I have been thinking about really stressful subjects, and I don't know how to get my mind off it. But I'd rather not talk about it. Don't worry, nothing bad happened to me and I didn't get hurt or anything. It's just that me and my mom were talking, and we ended up talking about a really sensitive topic, and it stressed me out. I almost got very mad and angry and I tried to keep my emotions together. I'm still trying now.
I wish I could cry. I have so many emotions built up inside my soul that I wish I could release through tears. But the tears just don't come. I'm so stressed out. I wish I had a friend to talk to. It's just so unfair for me to be so lonely. I have no one to share my thoughts with, no one to share my ideas with. I'm just so sad right now.
Again, this has nothing to do with my art. It's just my personal life being a pain in my butt right now. I don't even know why I'm typing this down. I just feel so wrong... I need a break from everything. I can't take any more stress right now. Maybe doing more art will cheer me up a little. When I do something I like, I might distract myself from the stress a little bit. I mean, drawing can take you on more adventures than what real life can offer.
Holy crud I'm rambling so much right now...
Anyways, yeah... stuff happens. It sucks. I just wanted to talk so at least maybe a few people could hear me. I just hope that even if something happens to me (I'm not talking about what you think I am ) some part of me will at least be preserved on the internet within my journals.
25 January 2018 at 00:35:49 MST