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Serious Inquiry (Please Read) by Syrae-Universe

The reason being that I've not been reporting much lately is due to real life situations.

Such as a citation I got back in November that I didn't deserve, struggling to pay it off before they take not only my licence, but my car insurance and costing me far more than I could really afford for. My family won't help, they say I should just pawn my belongings off when I've paid out of my own pocket for their citations they actually deserved (And those who donated money to me for this situation THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU LIKE HOLY SHIT). I'm still dealing with bills that should not only be my responsibility, but those whom I live with. Yet, I'm pinned for it. Many of you would play the "Don't care if shit gets shut down" but you have to understand that I get stressed and panicked about it. I can't leave it be unless it's dealt with. I'm heavily considering on moving out on my own if I'm paying more than half of the rent and ALL of the bills.

Or that I quit my job because I got tired of the mental abuse and bullying I got from customers over because their stuff is not working and they refuse to assist to fix a problem, only to end up with a charge when the technician gets there as well as hating my job. Not only that, I quit my job the week of thanksgiving because I simply just could not go anymore, coupled with depression to where I seriously questioned my values in life and just existing to where I went back to old eating habits and not caring. Though the silver lining to this is I found another job and trying to keep up with bills. I get paid more, but bills seem to go higher when I need it the most. But, I'm trying and do enjoy my job there more since it's not troubleshooting.

Another being that I'm not able to get loans to play catchup on bills that none of my family helps me with, yet their only solution is to pawn my stuff off like usual just to clean up their messes. Let alone leave me with children in the house when they clearly know I draw dicks at home when need be. Or the fact that they make a mess of my house and leave me so stressed to the point where I strongly dislike my family in general. Another being to where I feel ostracized and overworked to where I need to stop working on art just to get a breather otherwise I feel like I'm nothing but an art machine putting out pieces just to keep up with the daily payments in life. I just want... to work on art and relax. I have no choice than to be forced and deal with family.

A lot is going on in my world. I'm trying my best, my absolute best, to finish them in a timely manner. I've been posting much updates on my personal twitter, but I should be posting it in my private twitter. Again, I'm deeply sorry I've been taking so terribly long trying to finish art, but please understand that where I am in life is not in the best place. And depression is not helping. Especially when I'm struggling to fight back against it and keep working. Regardless of it, I'm still drawing. I'm working my hardest.

I wanted to make sure this is loud and clear to you all that I'm not trying to avoid you all, I'm stressing myself to an early grave at this point. I'm not taking any more commissions. And if I do, it means I'm in dire need of the cast and nothing more. The inquiry is, should I give a daily update on my twitter or on Tumblr just to keep everyone involved about my personal, offline life??

Please, continue to be patient with me. Thank you.

Serious Inquiry (Please Read)

Syrae-Universe

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    hugs
    Always here for ya if you ever need an ear or need any kind of help.

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    Only give updates if it won't add more stress...

    Seriously though, all the hugs.

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    Whatever helps you cope my dear friend. And you know where to find me if you ever need someone to scream at the world with...powers only knows I do that enough on my own time. =^.^=