Thanksgiving

For those of you who celebrate, I hope you'll be having a lovely day with family and friends. I will be taking the day off, hopefully afterwards I will be back to normal.

Streams and Immediate Plans

Apologies for those of you who attend my streams, sometimes I don't know if I'm going to until a bit before, tonight was the second of some heavily stressful days at my day job coupled with the realization the con is in a week so I don't have as much time as I thought, but it's a double edged sword. Between the holiday, the convention, and recovery time, there will not be a stream for the next few weeks.

MWFF

I will be attending MWFF in Chicago, which is one of the reasons for the next item. I knew it was coming but somehow in my head I thought I had a bit more time. I plan to try to shoot some video there, general convention footage and perhaps another video for my youtube channel.

Blue Moon Release Schedule

Needless to say my planned date will be a bit off. Between thanksgiving and the con I will not be able to approve the file, send it to amazon, and so on before the convention so the raffle will keep going until it's release. Also I'm hoping to get in touch with my only top patron between now and then to be sure his name is correct. However, it will be released, one way or the other, this year.

Patreon

I'm still learning the ropes... I haven't yet had a pay cycle yet so please bear with me as I learn how this all works, perhaps the benefit of waiting until my return from the con will be I can be sure I don't have six bots or something, or five, I know at least one is a real person, but does anyone have advice on how you send out rewards at the end of a month to patrons who have successfully contributed? To date I've just released them as I went to the appropriate level, some I've tried the 'early access' tool, which is pretty nice.

I'm debating if I'm happy with one of the tiers, but no one is at it at the moment so it's not an immediate concern. I don't know if it's a default if you're at one level if you get all the lower level tiers, it's fine if it is I just am still real new to this.

Sometimes I Doubt Myself

Maybe I shouldn't, but some nights I get anxious, afraid of success, afraid of failure, and I don't do what I should be doing, which is a lot of myriad tasks. I don't want to let anyone down, but believing in myself is hard. I'm shy, so the youtube and patreon thing, it's new to me and I'm trying to put the best product out there I can. Same with my writing. I do the best I can, I put a lot of work into planning it, but even so I can't help but be afraid there's something I've missed. Work this week has been hard, so I haven't done as much as I wanted. I may or may not finish my planned projects this month. I've been working on it, but maybe it's because they're both 'hurdle' projects, hard to know how to play them, but getting the courage to write has been tricky. I just want you guys to know why I've been here and there for a bit. I've missed posting dates, I've been off track, and I've no real time to lose but anxiety and stress, it's a challenge.

I'll overcome it, just bear with me.