hello everyone this is Red

I know I haven't done a journal for a while now but a lot has happened. some good and some bad in summer of 2017.

as summer come to a close I don't want to end my summer in a sour note. I made a promise not to post vent journals or things like that since last year. but this one has been hard.

over the past 2 and a half years I being to see this fandom dark side and the bad apples in it. I have made some mistakes and case a lot of trobble in this fandom. so I wanted to say im very sorry for the things I done to some of you that are reading this.

im being to realize that im not apart of this fandom and I feel unwelcome. most of the fandom is friendly but some make it look very bad and some see me as a bad wolf. I try to set things right and fix what I done but some refues my apology and continue to see me as a bad person. I don't want to be seen as the worst thing in the fandom and that's not what I came for. I came to make friends, enjoy artworks, and enjoy what this fandom has to offer, not the other way around.

look Im trying my best to be the best person I can be but I cant make anyone happy. and I cant change things for the better.

if most of you guys didn't get what Im trying to say is im very sorry and I understand if you see me as a good person or not but im thinking about to throw in the towel and just enjoy the artworks and that's it. but i will not tolerate its sass and behavior toward me and im just done being involve in the fandom for the time being and ill still be around every now and them but im just gonna enjoy some artworks until further notice.

im theredknight100 and im sighing out