Things have been very bad for me lately. I'm not okay.

I've been suffering with depression for a long time now, but recently it's been getting out of control. When it kicks in, it's been much worse and much longer than normal, and it's causing me to break. Yesterday was a mild example of that. I had a panic attack over a small thing and ended up overreacting, embarrassing myself.

My depression and stress has been getting worse with each passing day. I am reaching my breaking point and I simply cannot handle it anymore.

Anthrocon was supposed to fill me up and recharge me with enough energy to get through the year. The convention has always been a time that fills me with determination, motivation, and joy. However this year, it didn't do that. In fact, this year was so disastrous, that it ended up taking away what little energy I had left.

Many were curious how the con went for me this year, and to sum it up, it was a complete and utter nightmare, the worst experience I've ever had at a convention.

This was entirely due to my own group and the problems that happened within it. Anthrocon and Anthrocon staff had nothing to do with how awful the year went for me. In the moments where I was away from my group, and hanging out with friends like Mukiro, I had a lovely and wonderful time. But outside of that, I was completely and utterly miserable.

I don't want to give any details on exactly what happened, as It would be inappropriate to do so. These are issues that have to be resolved between me and the effected people.

Anthrocon and the resulting fallout has stressed me out beyond belief, and this is on top of all the other stresses I have. Depression isn't helping either.

Basically this makes for a very dangerous mix, and I'm really just not okay.

I feel like my art has been suffering as well. I haven't drawn for myself in years. I don't do it anymore, I can't afford to. I've been doing so much art so quickly that there has been no time for improvement or polish, and I feel that many of my works have suffered because of it. I've been working towards better prices and better planning with my art, so hopefully that will kick in soon, but first, there is something I have to do.

I need to take a break. I need to step away from everything for a while. I need to take care of myself and focus on making sure I'm okay before I come back here. I have to do a lot of things, but I can't do any of them without first taking care of myself. I'm going to finish the current YCH and post that up, but after that I'm taking a break. I'm going to be stepping away from everything as long as I can. I hope this will restore my drive to create, and help me feel... well... more joy from it. Right now, it's really hard for me to feel much of anything, and that's thanks to the depression. It's really hard for me to enjoy vore and other stuff like I used to, I'm feeling incredibly burned out. I haven't had any motivation or drive to make much of anything, I've been just making for the sake of survival, for the sake of paying my bills.

But that all stops now. I'm taking a break, I'm fixing everything, I'm making sure I'm okay, then I'm coming back. I'm sorry for any inconvenience this may cause but this is something I have to do for my mental health.

Thank you for understanding. I love you all and I could never thank you enough for the support you've given me. I wouldn't be here without you.