Obviously I'm already pretty slow art-wise, but the main reason for that is that I have tried to push myself to the point where artists are "supposed" to be, doing a picture every day and so on, and in the process of pushing myself to this standard that I have never been able to do, I have driven myself into a bout of depression. So rather than continuing to try to be the ideal artist I'm going to go ahead and go back to being the artist who draws when she feels like it and when she is inspired to draw. If that makes me appear to be lazy, then so be it. I obviously don't have the capacity to do what artists are "supposed" to do with their craft, so I'm not even going to try to do it anymore.

Also, I'm going to stop trying to draw what I think everybody else wants me to draw and just draw what I want to draw. That means I will no longer be "pushing myself" in unrealistic directions just because it's supposedly how artists improve. I don't know how you all improve, but I improve by doing what I want and making what I want look more like how I originally envisioned it over time. It's not the accepted way to do things, but then again I'm an artist, not a goddamn assembly line. I draw what I want to draw when I want to draw it, and if you don't want me to draw that way, well then tough day for you. I refuse to conform to artistic norms just so people don't harass me for being too different.