I am determined to commit suicide...

...Nah! I just pwned you! XP

Talking about this... :iconk-n3ko: Is down again with his depressive thoughts and yes, about to commit suicide. This time, due to circumstances, I am less accessible to help him out, but please, keep an eye on him again... I love him very much as my brother and it'll be painful if I lose him... Don't do it for me, do it for him... you're going to save a life, a people with future and being prosperous, with the help of all of us.

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For him,

Benjamin, You're stronger than "This"... I love you very much. You're one of my oldest friend I have met. If you're considering "THIS"... You're going to destroy all of us emotionally... Specially myself and "HIM". Not to forget your parents, If you do, your parents will do the same, so think twice!

I hate to see you like this! I just want to see happiness in my entire life...! I have been tortured emotionally seventeen moths in the row, since 2016... You must be helped! Count on us! We love to help you. And You like us equally. You're the push for me to keep me moving!

I'd love to help you, but I will be away for a week, or even months... So I can't right now... I cannot access to Telegram or Discord... But my friends will take care of you, so do "him". Promise me you will be better when I return and alive, okay? <:3 <3 <3 <3

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And... You are wondering right now, why I can't help Benjamin like I used to be... What happened to me lately...? Well, I paid more attention at the college, but still... I ended anxious and maybe I will pass this semester. I tried to draw pictures and study at the same time, I got carried away and I must admit that I decreased considerably my grades.... But I will pass.

Now the circumstances gets worse by time. Now the bank closed my checking account due to not pay my monthly debt and I am unable to continue my commissions... Maybe it won't affect with PayPal, I guess...? Now my phone is working weird and is dying, (I haven't paid the bills either and soon they will revoke the service) And I have no spare phone, So I will and cannot access Telegram either. And now my father called me angry to return his computer because I touched his PC without his permission. So No PC either. I bought an Xbox 360 and apparently the console breaks their own discs with his perfect ring of death.

I am slowly losing my things by time, And no job, being forced to look for loots from the garbage... Yes... I am looking for things from the garbage... I think I have such talent to look for "treasure" in there. I have found lots and lots of computers, monitors, and videogame consoles... Trying to fix by myself and have my own things from the garbage. But...

Do you thought that "this" hippo were rich and super popular, lots of friends, having a super badass gaming computer, playing latests PC games or having such awesome drawings, and even French? No... I am not anything like I mentioned earlier. I am a fraud. I shouldn't have been any of these place, I think I am wasting your time with me. One did "Unfriended" me and he did the right choice. This guy is more happy without seeing my face on Discord on Telegram... Because I barely have access at the moment.

I have been hiding all this like... last month... I have told this to my friends... So this is not new. Many friends are telling me to stop opening requests and start commissioning and raise prices because they think that my art are awesome, But I dunno... I doubt my art skills too. You must know that I like to draw for others and I hate to ask for money, despite I have lots of economic problems and are not your problems, are my problems and I have to solve it when I can.

If you insist, you can help me a little if you can, want, and feels like it, but I repeat, I am not asking for money. But you must know that my commissions are always open, but the problem right now is that I cannot receive money directly from the debit card (Where I live, it doesn't support PayPal and the bank closed my checking account). But the good side is that I can at least buy things on eBay or Newegg or I dunno... X3

Have a good day. My hiatus probably start tomorrow for weeks or even months. :-)