I've decided to choose to become a Hikikomori. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hikikomori

Not welcomed wherever I go for being who I am, I have to avoid human contact with nearly everyone.

Originally welcomed for what I was before my depression, now that it's going to take way too long to get the help I need, I have to lock myself away from society.

This choice only means more pain. But it's pain that's justified in others' eyes and that is mandatory.