I've decided to hold off on reporting the neighbor below me. I've been under a lot of stress lately and when I get that way I get paranoid. Yes, there was a smell of ammonia, and yes, I've been having symptoms that could be associated with living next to a meth lab, but the vast majority of other pieces of evidence that I've found online simply aren't there or aren't apparent enough for me to make a convincing argument, and quite frankly I myself am not convinced that there really is one down there.

And quite frankly, if there isn't one down there I don't want to become a pariah in this neighborhood by falsely accusing him of doing shit he's not doing. I've been falsely accused like that, and as such I don't want to be the one doing the accusing unless I have much stronger evidence than I presently have available.

As for the coughing, it's been going on for months now, I haven't seen a doctor because quite frankly I don't trust doctors and I don't want to spend the money when I just got a decent amount put into savings for the first time in my life without having the money gifted to me. The truth is, the paranoia is most likely a result of my accomplishment of saving money up. When I was a child, my parents would abuse me any time I accomplished anything that would empower me to rise above my station in life. I still have a lot of the conditioning associated with that abuse ingrained in my psyche.

My point is that though I have the symptoms, I can just as easily attribute them to my fear, conditioned into me by years of abuse, of accomplishing things that would make my life better. It may be that the neighbor does have a meth lab down there, but it may also be that this is my subconscious mind trying to sabotage what little I've accomplished as a means of protecting me from the monstrous behavior of my parents, who are over 2,000 miles away in another state and who don't even know where I live and thus cannot retaliate. I'm not willing to destroy myself or a neighbor because of an irrational fear that was beaten into me by abusive parents. So I'll wait and see if more evidence appears before I make my decision.