Hey everyone. Thought I better post a journal about this for the sake of transparency and also because, also I should inform all of you!
I thought I was getting a case of nerves, moving into a new location and completely different social environment than what I was used to. After talking about it with my older brother we concluded that I'm suffering from some sort of anxiety caused from the move. This probably stems from a move I experienced in my childhood where I suffered anxiety attacks (I didn't know that is what I was going through at the time). Since then I've been battling anxiety in various forms and have been getting pretty good at defeating it by and large. Though in the meantime my capacity to art is... compromised.
When I'm arting, be it drawing, painting, or whatever my mind is free to wander. I contemplate things, revisit ideas and concepts, and generally just float around in my head space as it were. Normally this is fine and healthy and I really like it. When I have anxiety issues all drawing seems to do is allow my mind to wander deeper into that particular feeling. It totally sucks and I hate that it happens as such D:<
So as it be, I'm working much slower than I would like while trying to achieve some manner of equilibrium with this anxiety. It's not crippling since I know what it is and I now know why I feel that way (and believe me, my logic mind thinks it's utterly silly I even have anxiety in this size of a problem in the first place) so I can still function like a normal person. I suppose I'm trying to find comfort for the feeling or an outlet to get it out of me for want of a better descriptor.

So that's what's going on with me. Sorry for the delay in posting. I'll try my best to get over this hurtle and get my feet back under me!

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