i'm so afraid...fear consuming...pain engulfing...help me figure out how to feel good.."

this is a response to what i said to sammie over the phone...now i feel like absolute shit...i know sammie said..MANY times..that i shouldnt feel bad but....i cant....i want to know the truth....the truth of..wether she hates my flaws or not....i feel sick...cause i am so damn worried...baby..please...note me the response...please...i need to know the truth..