So I've been doing a lot of thinking recently, and wish to share a little bit about my personalty to those who may not quite understand the kind of person i am, instead of jumping to conclusions of Rumors, or even first impressions.

For those who care to read on I thank you and appreciate the time you took out of your evening to try to understand me as a person in my own words.

First of all,I am aware i can come off as brash, and loud come first meetings, if this has ever bothered you i apologize, i may love being around people and making friends, but up until about 10 years ago i couldn't even approach anyone, i am still quite shy believe it or not.

My first impression attitude may not always be the best, I'm learning to settle my self a bit, but i learned that i probably wont go anywhere with making friends unless i was more open and direct. i don't like to pretend to be someone I'm not.

I am an Honest person, I do not talk to people with the intention to lie, i go based of personal experience, and i try not to get wrapped up in rumor-mills or drama-mobiles, but have been known to fall for them on occasion. i also wish to claim my honesty can be blunt once in a while.

Usually I would keep to myself in situations such as those, however, if i feel there is warrant to speak, and express my opinion, I will not be afraid to do so, whether you agree with me or not.

I have been known to Dwell, but try not to let it control my life, but sometimes you just have to vent, its not easy being in a community of any kind that is so full of crap and drama from other peers around me and some of those reprises bring back things that remind me of certain points in my life in which i would prefer to forget,

I am FAR from perfect, nor will i ever be (theres no such thing and you are no walk in the park either), underneath all this fur I am human just like everyone else and I have emotions which I express LOUDLY... I am who I am and I will be what I am(though open to suggestions to handle things better), and if you have the stomach and the open mind for it, i welcome you into my circle of friendship, i do not approve of "probation" friendships...

those aren't REAL friendships. you're either my friend or you're not. there is no grey area.

I dont have to prove ANYTHING to you, i dont need to feel "accepted" by someone who doesn't want anything to do with the real me, all i can say is either TRUST me, or at least give me the benefit of the doubt before you judge what kind of person you think i am.

now, for some more Quirks about me;

I have poor grammar and not very good at punctuation, so deal with it, i type how I would speak to someone...

If I feel responsible for something, and i dont feel its getting done, YES i will be a hard ass bitch about it, because I like results, i dont like procrastination over important matters or events.

Mis-communication, is another thing people say I do, if there is something you dont understand or wish to find out more about ASK! and I will do what I can to clarify....

"Mother hen" where i dont necessarily think that's a bad thing, some people might, being alot of my friends are much younger than i, and may not have quite reached that form of maturity yet...being a mom now doesn't really help this matter, I've always been a maternal type...and I always will be, if it is bothersome, dont grind your teeth and roll your eyes, tell me I'm getting a little controlling, and I'll do my best to stop or work another way around it to get my point across.

Drama-factory! thats a great one....YES i have been known to "feed the trolls" from time to time, as I said earlier, i usually keep to my self over senseless prattle unless something that i feel strongly about is being taunted with, but usually i would say my piece and be done with it. but there have been times i would carry on...this falls under the same category as I AM NOT PERFECT PEOPLE! I vent to my most trusted friends and family over my grievances and I understand that once I get going i can rabble on about it for hours...simple solution, if you dont want to hear any more tell me and I will stop and change the subject. that easy...

Boistrous and Obnoxious....YES i admit, i can get this way as well, who doesn't? if there is something going on or a discussion being discussed that I feel strongly and emotional about, I do have a habit of getting loud in my passionate replies...and most of the time I dont even know I'm doing it, so if you notice, please tell me and I'll try to tone it down a bit. or if i'm having a really great time over something have been known to get obnoxious about it as well, all these things i can easily stop if you give me a heads up about it

Repetative and Dwelling... i really dont know how to stop that, if i dont think people hear me (i am always looking for some kind of indication i was heard) i have a habit of repeating myself, I know this I am aware of it but i dont really know how I can stop it without something coming back to me in reply.

Fast talker...yes I can be a fast talker, and sometimes i stumble over my words as a result of it, this also happens when i get excited about something. i also have a nasty female habit of starting off Completely different subjects that have absolutely no relation to the previous, and will jump back onto that prior subject somewhere in the middle of the current one....luckily i have some friends who can keep up...

Interrupter/Disrupter yes I do that too sometimes, I apologize i dont do it to be rude, sometimes when someone is talking about something it reminds me of something and i have a habit of blurting it out, that i suppose would go hand in hand with "fast talker" but if i catch myself I usually stop immediately.

"Being Friends with the enemy" is one I'm notorious for as well, no names but you know who you are for those who wish to actually read this, Yes I try to make friends with everyone, and that can sometimes result in befriending someone who had done you wrong in the past, i do not pick sides, i find it childish and immature, i would listen and understand your dis-content for the other party, but they never did anything to me, so i have no reason to hate them, the least I could do is...NOT hang out with them when I am hanging out with you...and make my own determination of the party only IF i experience it myself...however if they say something about the other that doesn't sound right to me i will most likely speak up about it as well.

Over-stressed and Snappy: really? you'd go there, lets just put it this way, if you knew half the crap i go through alot of the time, you'd be stressed too, and being a mom, it only adds to it if your child decides to have an "impossible Day" as most children do through out their lives, dont get me wrong, I love my child and wouldn't trade him for the world, but sometimes i just need to let it out...and scream sometimes...

Opinionated, that goes hand in hand with being Honest, if I have an opinion about something,you are DAMN RIGHT I'm gonna say something, as if you dont have opinions of your own, please...if they dont agree with you they suck... bullshit...i've danced that waltz before....you are nothing compared to them, and I will not back down if I feel strongly about it.

Irrational....yeah thats been thrown at me as well....its amazing how some people project their irrationality on to others and blame them for being the irrational one..irrational is just that, an emotion which makes it nearly impossible to speak to said party until they have sat down and took a break from what ever it is they got themselves into, i dont deny i've been irrational at times, but so has everyone else at one point in their lives...its not uncommon for people to get emotionally involved in shit that really isn't what's important and becomes blinded to who their friends are in situations that lead to irrational feelings.

My sense of humor is also very sarcastic, and I do tend to tease from time to time, but if it really bothers you, please tell me and I will stop, I'm understanding if you're willing to give me a chance.

I like to give everyone the benefit of the doubt, i try not to judge based off rumors, but like I said, I'm only human, sometimes i can get caught up in the heat of the moment and not realize it until its too late... for the people I dont like or do not wish to associate my self with, theres usually a pretty damn good reason for it, and once my trust is gone, its hard to get it back, especially if said people continue to carry on while trying to "offer friendship" to me with one hand while holding a dagger behind their back in another. i dont shun people who hang out with these individuals, it just means i will be more cautious with them until i see for my self what type of person they really are and what their motives are.

thats about all i can think of at this point in time....might add more later...

OTHER than that, I'm open, understanding, social, always up for meeting new people, making friends, and once you get comfortable with me, i can be a very fun person i think. and i would definitely be a friend for life if thats what you want.

but friendship is a two way street, it can't work one-sided... relationships are the same way. i dont intend to be friends with everyone, where that would be nice, I know its impossible, but i like to think for those who take the time to read this, discover, I am a great person to get to know, if you can just get past my quirks, if I'm willing to see past yours (to an extent) dont you think its only fair to see past mine?

If You made it down this far, Congratulations! and thank you for taking the time out of you're evening to get to know me better =) i look forward to getting to know you better, if only you'll let me!