hey, im just trying to check in more often! weekly check-ins are something i need to do to keep me on track regularly, so that my projects and assignments don't build up and snowball. ~small steps!~ i'm going to upload sketchbook pages here this coming week. i'm drawing nearly every day, even if its just a scribble. woo!

i found out something decently interesting: looking at others art helps me get motivated to make my own! and i had the mentality that i should only be working, not looking or browsing, but I forgot about the brain work that goes on. work isn't so simple. there's more to art than what the hand does, and with school i've learned this lesson harder than ever. no matter how tight my line work is, if there's no substance behind it it will not communicate what i want! there's so much more to consider before making marks on a medium than i had thought previously. all that had been guiding me whether i knew it or not, and cutting out access to viewing changed how i thought about my own art. that was stark to learn. when i didn't check regularly about other people's work, i did less of my own. it really brought to light how important accessing community is to individual mental models. facilitating and setting up the environment around you is just as important as doing the work by yourself.

my art and projects need a better artist behind them, a better worker to fuel the fire. my current quest is to organize and plan my work tighter and tighter!! just normal struggles i guess, i'm in my early twenties and i get a lot of feedback from others that it's okay to not have it all together, and its okay if you're not quite getting it right.

i'm in a weekend class that operates in huge class time chunks, with ample flexible time during the week to organize my own work sessions. i've also caught up with many friends and made new ones and have been trying to find my own place in the world outside institutions. all in all, its been challenging to figure out where i currently stand in the world!

i guess i'm standing on a surfboard with the constant changing and moving waves underneath me! trying my best to not wipe out ^^