So, there's a rule at my dad's house that I have to clean the house top to bottom daily because "I'm a woman, it's my job." As you can imagine, aside from the sexism, it's not easy for me. Outside of my asthma, arthritis and fainting issues, this house is VERY old and stained and 2 of 4 household members (brother and father) don't clean. Ever.

I do the dishes, sweep, mop, scrape dried piss from the toilets and floor, and generally scrub the house down as best as I can, as much as I can, on a sort of daily basis. However, it's not enough for my dad and as punishment for being a bad 'woman', he's doubling my rent.

Now, this wouldn't be a problem...if I made a decent living wage. I say this all the time so I'll skip the spiel, but aside from patreon paying for groceries for the house monthly, majority I don't even get to enjoy with MY hard work, all my commission money goes to cleaning supplies, womanly products when needed and, you guessed it, rent.

I already bumped my prices up last year and I don't want to do it again. I feel they're good enough to make me money and be affordable. If I nudge them any higher, I'll lose business.

My Patreon already lost $150 last year and it makes around $95.00 now, combined with the $300 I make monthly, that's $400.00 Guess how much rent's become?

I don't wanna open up donations, and I'm already behind on commissions. I hate to do it, but, I might have to become an 'adoptable' account. Nobody buys my linearts and bases and I sure as hell don't wanna force my Patreon and old adopts into everyone's throats. Jake's been looking for jobs and so have I but with a state that's 4:1 people to jobs, it's hard. We can't save money to move elsewhere if I have to spend every penny I get.

I'm probably at the point where I'm gonna have to sell stuff I own again, which already isn't much. I'm debating on selling art packs or hell, raffling off sketchbooks. I dunno. I'm already stressed enough with my medical issues and being shuttled to and from hospitals, add that to cleaning and working as long as I can for art commissions, I'm stressed to no end.

I need out, I need help, and I don't know what to do. To most of you it's probably the most pathetic thing in the world; I've been insulted and attacked for it before. If you have a job and a place to live and struggle with bills, I've been there. Everyone has hardships. I'm doing my absolute best and it's not enough and I don't know what to do...

Unfortunately, it seems, I might need to take on bulk commissions and start finishing them in month-long timeframes :/ I don't want to have to do that, I DESPISE making people wait for art. But I'm afraid my adopts won't sell and I'm just...picking my brain. I don't want this to sound like a huge cry for help or attention, that's not what I want taken from this. But I do want to let people know that because my dad's sexist and because nothing I do is enough, things might be changing around here on my page for a while. I'll do my best to keep everything orderly and as efficient as possible.