Latley after I have come back to the states my mental state has grown worse...and I hate myself for it. I get even more jelous and envious of people who have more time with him then I do and I see it as childish. This is my first real relationship with a man and he has been an absolute champ in helping me calm down from my panic attacks and unessisary freak outs. He still wants to marry me after all that. So I did this as a half thank you half joke and he loves it. Characters belong to us art by me.