Just thinking about mental illnesses.
I wanted to try and communicate what it feels like to deal with an untreated mental illness...in a way, anyways.
It's like a constant whirlpool, forced to move while feeling tangled up
Needing to swallow it all and put on a mask - cover your eyes, pretend you're not swirling, be someone else
All the while realizing it's all in your head so why can't you make it stop?
Others saying "it's all in your head"
"Just think differently"
"Everyone has these issues sometimes, it's normal"

With all that being said though
If you are struggling, get help.
Go to your doctor, seek professional care
You can get better, you can feel better
You only have to take the first step