old stupid religious stuff from DA in 2010

I honetly dont anymore understand how people i know can tie their souls and their identity into these insane self abusive knots trying to cram and manipulate themselves into something they are not or are not equal to in a religious context. Most of them i know are every depressed people who live life without a sense of positivity. The promised happiness of religion seems instead to them to be a powerful ruler they always have to measure their identity to in order to escape their very real fear of a divine punishment. Its made all the more absurd when most of the people i know are terrified of god over sins like seuxal activity and personal identity, while the more religious i know have made a massive exception to the sins of killing, greed, and pre-judgement. Meanwhile right now im watching a world tear itself apart over religious convictions on who has the right to a piece of land they claim their god has granted to them and must forever be theirs.

Honestly nowadays it seems religion could possibly be the thing that dooms humanity.

Oh I just remembered. This drawing was done way back when to reflect on a time when i was 15 and religious, and my fear of gods wrath, hell, sin etc put me in a state where i would at night hide in the bathroom in full body shakes and the feeling i was going to vomit at any moment. i nor my parents realized i was having frequent panic attacks over religion at night.