Ya know what fucking sucks? Losing a Best Friend.
Ya know what's worse than that? Knowing that despite your best intentions you both were too fucked up in the head to make the friendship last just ended up hurting each other.. :/

I was having anxiety attacks all thru the morning and I finally sat down and drew my feelings out and this just pretty much forced me thru the 5 Stages of grief (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/K%C3%B.....s_model#Stages) and I'd say I'm starting to finally settle on 'Acceptance' so, eh.

Character is mine.

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I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

--White Flag by Dido