illustration by klippy
This is a piece, as best I could remember, from 2013 that I wrote. It was initially for a project in which I was asked to write the score for it. The project went down the tubes, and with it the score, as to why it's not available. (I honestly haven't the foggiest clue where it is.)
I would say a year or so ago, he reopened the project, and again wanted me to write the score. I declined. For two reasons. One was a simple case of not wanting to write music at the time seeing as my mental health wasn't in the best of shape. The second is that (and the one that I told him), I'd rather not work on long term projects in the case that I decide to finally off myself.
That said, I like this piece, but at this point, I guess I've fallen out of love with music. I don't want to write it anymore, at least not for consumption. And despite the narcissism that drives my wanting to be successful, and to some degree, recognized, my inferiority complex became too much to ignore.