I’m taking a stand to escape what’s inside me
A monster, a monster
I’ve turned into a monster
A monster, a monster
And it keeps getting stronger
-Monster, Imagine Dragons

Don’t get too close
It’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
-Demons, Imagine Dragons

"Why do you even give a damn about a lowly, worthless monster like me? I'm not worth the effort or the time. I'm--I'm expendable. You should find someone who isn't...who isn't like me. Someone better than me."

The two songs above sort of inspired this piece, although the night that Monster was what really kickstarted it. It also kicked me right in the feels for Lupin. She doesn't necessarily "struggle" to keep the beast at bay, or to keep her pyrokinesis under wraps. But, she does fight instincts very often, and humanizes herself a lot more than she likes admitting aloud. She doesn't like staying in her fur for very long. She doesn't like showing off her pyrokinesis. When she does, she has to pretend she isn't bothered if others see it. Deep down, however, she feels like an abomination that is very expendable if the need ever arose.

...Of course, she's got friends and family who love her and kind of have to remind her from time to time that while she may be a monster physically at certain times, she isn't on the inside, or at the very least, is one of the good monsters that chose to protect instead of destroy. Even if she has blood on her hands, it's better that it's another monster's blood than the blood of someone she loved.