was babysitting today and my sis loves it when i build "bear caves" aka a fort. she runs around and stuff. i spend so much time with her. i have since she was born. im basically her second mom. she loves seeing me. wasnt suppose to be that way. i never liked the thought of a new sister in my life. i knew shit would go wrong. and it kinda has. im the one watching her 24/7 missing out on my life. but i cant say no. i dont want her going to a daycare. i have had very bad babysitters take care of me and my siblings. and my partents did nothing. and i was to young to do anything. so i will be her mother till she hates me i guess.

sure gona be hard getting back into "life" when she no longer needs this old bear anymore..