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Nonexistent Motivation... by o-kemono (critique requested)
... It's one of those days... You really don't feel like doing anything. Your body doesn't want to move and your mind doesn't want to process any information. Your emotions remain at a standstill. You crash. You break down...
... You find no motivation to do anything. Instead you ride the days away like a plank of wood in the ocean. Your mind drifts in and out of reality to the point where you no longer notice the change. All you have on your body is your pajamas or nothing at all. Why bother getting dressed when you have no drive to go out of your own room or even your own bed...
... Your body still craves food, but the food your get is not food your body needs. junk food or anything near you will do. You don't care what you eat, as long as it will shut off the growling in your belly. But even then you have no motivation to eat and just ride out the pain you feel, aiding your already down state...
... ' What's the point in anything ' is what your mind constantly thinks of. trying to find the answer to that question doesn't exist in your dull state. More questions pile in your mind. The more there are, the more you feel anchored down. Depression starts to kick in. You see no positive sides to life. You see nothing. You hear nothing. You feel nothing. The only thing you can feel is the coldness of the sheets on top of you as your curl in a ball and try to hide from the world around you...
... ' Screw You World ' you whisper to yourself. ' I don't care about anything. Why bother do anything if I don't feel the joys of accomplishment? Why bother caring if no one cares about me, even myself? ' You constantly think of reasons why you should remain under your bedsheets. You don't want to deal with anything the world has to offer. The only motivation you have right now is breathing...
... After the vast void of depression and sloth, you slowly start to feel motivated again to do something. Your mind snaps you out of your depressed state and you find yourself on your feet, dressed and ready to face what lies outside your front door.
There will be Hills and valleys in your life. Whenever you are in a valley, you will come across a hill in due time.
artwork © 2013 Alex Cockburn
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Ahh yes, I know that feeling. Most times when I get in that state I tend to revert to a coccoon state. I barricade myself in my room, just pretend the rest of the world doesnt exist. I would not leave my room unless absolutely neccecary. My room was my world and my blanket was my shell to protect me from the cold hatred that resided outside the walls. I dont want to think of anything, dont want to do anything. Just want to sleep and make the world go away.
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Hah hah, I definitely know the feeling. It sure helps to use emo art to break out of it, if I can make myself do so. Sometimes I just WANT to be depressed. Those times are the worst. But...thankfully, don't happen often anymore. :-) Art commissions and feeling useful helps SO much! Gardening my own food helps even more. :-)
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Story of my life... Nice work
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undergroundwolf
yeah i know that feeling all too well but when i get depressed it like im in a sealed off cave no light, no sound, nothing and often when my mind wonders to something else it end up in the opposite i feel tense and angry and i feel all the regrets, missed opportunities, and strangely loneliness start to flood in and i start to see shades of red i want ta destroy everything i ever known even myself but i just lay in my bed until i get over it.