" For those that know me, you know that I worked hard to get the body that I have now. When I was younger, I used to be rather skinny, almost boney ( my goth faze ). I decided to get some meat on me, at least a belly. My body was stubborn and I couldn't gain any weight. I tried a lot of healthy techniques and foods, but I gained nothing. I soon found a nice combination of foods that helped me get a small belly. I continued to go on that meal plan until I had a cute and sexy tummy - not too large and not too big. The right amount of pudge that I felt made me look rather sexy. I've managed to keep the tummy over a course of a few years. I've gained and lost a few pounds randomly, but I managed to keep the roundness of the belly perfectly and my health stable. My breasts also grew along with the weight gain, which had it's ups and downs. I had to get rid of my old shirts and pants and buy some that fit me and showed off my figure. But when was the last time you saw Ookami draw me with pants on??

Right now, I'm questioning my belly. I'm starting to feel a bit uncomfortable with my round figure. Many of the shops I used to go to no longer sell clothing for plus size women like me. They only focus on the slender and skinny female clothes, yelling the message that only slender women look beautiful and sexy. To me, that is BULLSHIT! I have to go to other stores to find some clothes that would fit me and they are about twice the traveling distance. Commercials and billboards also push the fact that a slender body is the ONLY body a woman should have. The market pushes the idea that skinny women are more visually appealing than rounder women.

It's not just the stores and media that are getting to me. Its also the furry community. I love the community and for those that know me, I sometimes question certain areas about it ( mostly the fetishes ). I don't see that many 'round' female fursona's and characters on FA or anywhere else. Most to almost all the woman that are drawn by artists are always slender with large breasts that are always the same shape and defies gravity. It's the same figure all around. Whenever I do find a furry character with a belly and "realistic proportions", its mostly a hyper/vore/inflation fetish aftermath that is the cause of it, and even those don't have a realistic feel to them. Like the commercial ads and the stupid clothing stores, the same message goes: 'A woman with a skinny and curvaceous body are the pinnacle of being attractive and erotic.' Ookami draws me with the figure I personally have and is very happy to draw my round belly. Ookami says that women should have a nice bit of roundness to their belly and it adds character.

Have you ever went to a furry convention and/or physically seen a furry fan who is a bit round in the belly or body, but their characters/fursona is the exact opposite: skinny, muscular, curvaceous, and god-like? Why do people do that? I've never asked, thinking that might be a personal area to wonder in through.

I'm rambling, so I will get to the point of all this: I'm starting to have second thoughts with the way I look. I just look at my body and I start to feel a bit down with it. I'm very round. I'm not over weight and I have no problems with the extra mass I have on my body. I just feel a bit alone. Even though I made my body the way I want it to look for years, what is the point when you can't share it? I love my roundness. It aids in my cuteness factor and who I really am as a person. I've worked hard to get this shape. But now, the general media are mostly focusing on clothes for very skinny and large breasted women and the general population believes that round woman are not "healthy" and "attractive", I'm starting to feel a bit down and alone.

I'm even starting to feel, as a feline female furry, that I look unattractive to other furs because I'm round and not skinny. I know thats not really true, but I feel like I just need some encouragement from some friends and fans...

I'm ROUND. I'm SEXY. I'm HAPPY. I'm a WOMAN. is what Im constantly telling myself whenever I feel a bit down about my physical appearance. I believe that a round woman has a natural attraction and has always been since the dawn of time."

-PC a.k.a PussyCat