A 'speak' picture for me friends.

Unfortunately I'm always speechless with people both online and in person so I often can only draw the way I feel or want to feel for people out. This makes me feel like such a horrible friend, that I don't speak, and often avoid it because of 'reply anxiety.' I'm even worse at this when there is distance between us. It hurts I can't hug and hold my lovelies too much, when they show up online, I hide to cope with the absence that they're not really there in front of me. I'm afraid it makes me come off as 'cold,' when in actuality my heart is bleeding.