"You blame yourself for everything that happens but its not your fault. People are wired to do these types of things. Its not your fault stop saying it is. You beat yourself up over people who could care less. The ones who care prove it and the ones who don't prove themselves as well. None of the outcomes are your fault. People can be cruel."

Some realization sketch. Its not healthy to deal with things the way I do. So I drew this. It isn't my fault. People have double standards naturally. I shouldn't be hurt by people who cut ties. I should just be glad I don't have the blood on my hands from doing so. They see things they way they want to see them. It doesn't matter what or how you say it. I see this all the time with Trump supporters and the later. It just happens I can't do anything about it and I shouldn't try to. Let them think what they think.

I was practicing back drawings and it just turned into this. I'm pretty happy with how the sketch turned out. I wasn't even supposed to be in it it just happened when my mind trailed off like with all the other drawings.

Edit: Its been a long road to knowing this. Over 13 years of pain just to realize when I'm about to turn 21that this is what I needed to learn all along.... Sort of surreal. Wish I knew it sooner.. But I made good friends along the way so even though there are few compared to what I thought, its still better than I could have imagined. Perhaps now I can move on to a better lesson. Pushing myself to become what I want and who I want. More trials and the like, but... Whats treasure without working for it ya know?