About two years ago, I became a great deal less active in the fandom, due to various reasons- some of them pertaining to things I wanted to do.

Lately I have tried to come back and be more active, talk to more people, reconnect- yet, strangely, it feels as if I'm not coming through. Like, say, I'm standing on a little island sending signals and none of them are actually getting there.

Am I too strange, too out of the norm? I always feel like I'm on the outside looking in. I don't begrudge being myself, but I certainly wish at times that there were more holes to match my peg.

Now, on a more lighthearted note-- I have decided that I will draw a doodle every time I post about something on my journal- and that the doodle must match part of the content of the post. So here's the first doodle, drawn on my Samsung tablet.