Before I start on my rant, let me give the details of this pic. This was taken a couple weeks ago up at RL Works and was my trial fitting for delivery of my new bodysuit. It was a warm by slightly foggy day and me and Razzy decided to do some glamor shots of the new suit. Razzy did an amazing job with the photos. This was one of the best.

But more important is what this new bodysuit has ment to me so far. I haven't gotten to use it much. Just at pick up and one night when I was really bored home alone. XD But just wearing it was amazing. Just for the one hour I had it on.

At first I was kinda hesitant to hire Razzy. Not cause she doesn't do great work, but because she's my good friend and I've lost friends before due to breakdowns in business. Hiring friends is always kinda a slippery slope, no matter who it is. Always gotta be careful. While I'm sure nothing was gonna happen, I was a lil worried. But things worked out more then great. Razzy was able to finish my suit far ahead of schedule, allowing me to take it to Canada next week for Vancoufur, which made me super happy!

This picture is super special for many reasons. At the moment this was taken, I was just kinda hugging my tail and taking a moment to just be happy. So happy, I just kinda closed my eyes and had a moment. Thought about alot of stuff in 20 seconds. Thought about how great it felt to simply be in the suit, then I thought about this last year. How great it's been and how I just don't wanna stop doing this ever. I think it was an emotional moment about how different the entire experience felt compared to partial. I mean, when I was in partial suit, I just felt like a fat guy in a weird animal head. This... this was different. Head to toe, I felt like a new person. Not even a person at all. Felt like I was totally immersed into the character, and I had nothing holding me back as a performer and fursuiter. Honestly, I was very close to just running down the street and hanging out Wendy's and waving at people. Pretty sure Razzy was not ok with me doing something like that. My point is it felt totally new. A world of difference. Kinda like I had just being messing around for the last year, and NOW I finally had a fursuit.

But more then that, another more important thing went through my head at that moment. Something that emotionally ties into fursuiting for me. My friends. For the first time in my life, I've had REAL friends. I've had S.A.D. for a long time. When I was a child up until high school it just made me so shy that I just couldn't make friends. I never talked. After high school, it morphed into this sort of paranoia that everyone hated me. I dunno, it's weird. I've been getting past it the best I can, but it left me friendless for most of my life. My point is not till now have I had friends who have really supported me and helped me get past my issues. It's still a challenge now and then, but I'm able to get past it with support from others.

All this kinda waves over me when I look at this picture. It reminds me of what the last year has been like for me. Fursuits, friends and fun. I have met and made friends with so many amazing people this last year, including Razzy. It means so much to me and I cherish every moment I am able to get with my friends. Just a big thank you to all of you. Everyone who has supported me, spent time with me, and call me your friend.

It's a great feeling, and it took me till I was 30 years old to have friends like this, but It's better then never having any ever. I'd do anything for you guys. Thank you so much for just being such wonderful friends and being so supportive. :)

And thank you Razzy for such wonderful job on the bodysuit and for taking an amazing photo. :)

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photo ©    razzy\_lee 2013

Fursuit Credits:

Head, sleaves(partial) & footpaws by rarakie

Gloves, leggings(partial), & tail by matrices

Bodysuit by razzylee

shades by scape-goat

owned and performed by maxcoyote