I view myself as a monster/demon/beast because of my anxiety and anger
how I keep my emotions locked up to where I am angry with everything.
I don't know why but I was so mad about everything that I yelled at my wonderful mate. and she gives me so much love and forgives me.
I wonder how she can love a beast like me?
how I get angry then I just.. become this big ass hole and she still loves me.

I do apologize to her in the end and I do something to make it up to her but I am so afraid she is going to leave me one day
but she tells me she will never leave me.

I am going to therapy for my anger/anxiety to fix me. So I don't lose this amazing wonderful woman who loves me for me especially my imperfections...
I love her so much that words can not describe how much my heart beats for her... That I haven't cried for loving someone so much until I met her. I become a fountain every time I express my love to her. I have not done that with anyone.

FA: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13134209/