I was at the party last friday and... It was the most amazing experience of my life
So many amazing people, so many memories were made. I heard a lot of compliements and what other think about me in general. It was actually first time I got such a feedback about myself y'know? And first time I felt so... found around people. There was also this one girl that made me feel like there's actually this enjoyable side of me. That there's a lot in me worth loving. All I need is to focus on my therapy and maybe one day I'll look at myself the way other sees me. I'm finally gonna be happy, finally have someone close.
I'm on my way
On a good way
And I'm proud of that

But about the drawing. It's my fursona but- You can see the difference?
Left one is the real one. The one everyone see. Everyone except me. It's a way real me will look when I'll get over all this crap I have in my life.
I see myself as the right one. Corrupted. Broken. Just wrong. There's so much pain in her. And that's why I'm using her.
One day, I'll be happy again. And you'll see this left version then.

Also this is just a sketch because I wasn't going to spend 10 hours to make good vent lmao

Originally posted on October 20, 2019 on DeviantArt