Music used: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N_rFg5CGtk4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JRL1fqhDV1I
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=64f3r1LOLZM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_peZsVcKmMo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_AWIqXzvX-U
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q86g1aop6a8

My entire life has been nothing but a sham. This picture sums it all up. But it's more than that. 2014 was the worst year of my life. I was greatly humiliated. But it was a wake-up call. Despite that, I felt like I would've committed suicide or left the fandom for a few months. And suicide may have been the least of my worries. But now, the biggest source of my problems has been my family. Especially my father. They have managed to descend themselves into conspiracy-mongers. And their "beliefs" are driving me crazy. What many people don't seem to realize is that I'm autistic. But it has crippled me for many years. And now, I feel like I need to find answers as to what went wrong with my life. It's more than that. I was bullied in school, I didn't make a lot of friends in the past. And being autistic didn't help. It caused me more emotional damage. Now, I want retribution. I am a retributionist. And it's more than escaping my family. Because of how they are now. I have to leave them. They left me no choice. This fandom is my family. My home. But even in this fandom, there are people that hate me. And as far as I'm concerned, nobody would be willing to help me out of my situation. That's fine. If this is how it's going to be...

And I'm already anticipating a lot of watchers turning against me...
And nobody would be willing to commission me. I would like some sort of spirituality to help me.

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