Trying to get a bit of my muse back...been working on this on and off between commissions, and got completely wrapped up in it tonight while trying to work on someone's image.

Maybe pixels haven't had enough of a presence in my artistic life. I feel they're something I can work with, most of the time, without getting frustrated, annoyed, or dissuaded by. Most other artwork is a struggle with me anymore. Do I still enjoy it? Most of the time. Is it something I actively seek to do? Not much anymore. Pixel work seems to help me escape that little loop that I seem to get caught in every now and again. It's relaxing. A good escape from everything else. A good escape from life for a couple of hours. Something really, really needed lately that I wasn't able to grasp my fingers around until now. I want art of all kinds to be fun again -- no more dreading working on a project. No more hatred of my work. That's probably why I haven't done as much this past year or two -- my art hasn't been connecting with me the way it used to. It kills me. Art used to be my life, my essence, what I lived to do. But this past year it's felt more of a burden -- I feel that I have seen very little improvement, though I may be sketching my sorry ass off whenever I can coax myself into doing so. Pixel art is somewhat the opposite -- I can feel and see myself improving in each piece I do and that's a feeling I haven't felt in a very, very long time.

Do not use. My use only.