Hearing and old song I liked in Middle School really took me back. Normally when I look back that far I think about my online social life, which was really thriving at that point. But my life in school was the exact opposite. Age 12-13 was a really dark time in my life and I don't like to remember it very often. I was absolutely miserable most of the time. I'm pretty sure I had depression really bad back in Middle School, but my parents are the kind that don't believe in mental illness and never took me to see a doctor about it. I had friends and everything, but everyone who wasn't my friend really hated me, including most of my teachers. Everything anyone did pushed me further away from social norms and I ended up ostracised for the most part. Things got somewhat better in High School, but when I finally left home and went to college I found out who I really was when I'm not being lorded over by my parents or teachers and really bloomed into being a much happier person in general.
I'm probably the healthiest mentally I've ever been in my life at this point, and this is just a retroactive vent.