“The Autumn Effect” - 10 Years

“The Autumn Effect” - 10 Years (Piano Version)

[I haven’t uploaded any art in a long time – but I needed to post this now.]

10 Years has been a favorite band of mine for just about that long. Their music has seen me through many low points in my life; and even though their minor, melancholic songs sound sad or depressing to some, they’ve always been uplifting for me. This is why I selected the songs listed above for this piece.

It can be difficult to love and accept yourself when you lose a job or a loved one – or both. Who doesn’t want both? But sometimes things change. People change. And so… I changed too.

It’s taken me a very long time to learn that when I’m alone, I’m all I’ve got (no gods or dearly departed to watch over me, no one around to talk to). And it’s taken me a very long time to try to be kind to myself. It’s not easy, but willingly loving yourself is the only path you can take if you want to love others. And that’s what I want in life.

There’s a lot of symbolism in this piece that’s personal. From the autumn season, to furry fandom, to the full moon – things I happen to like. However, most important here is the rose; I’ve always liked white roses and I don’t know why. In every romantic relationship I’ve had, I’ve always given white roses. So here, the white rose represents my heart; it’s starting to wilt but it it’s far from dead. While everything else dies and leaves with the wind around me, the rose does not; I won’t let it.

“Silent beauty,

No one cares,

Silent ending,

No one’s there.”

But I do, and I am…