i absolutely hate this. oh well.

when you feel your happiness draining and you go into a state of panic while you try fixing it. then you get really depressed but don't tell anyone because you know nobody will give half of a shit. i really don't deserve to be alive. yet my selfish self wants to be an ass and continue living, just to ruin the lives of those around me. i'd love to prove to everyone how much better off they'd be without me around. fuck.
lmao dab on my grave pls