this past year has been pretty unusual in a lot of ways, the largest being that i felt as though i spent a large portion of it ignoring my emotions and just begrudgingly pushing, pushing, pushing through life on a daily basis. things didn't really make me as happy as they used to, and if they did there was a stipulation to go with it.

it's funny how things work out, it's funnier how you grow to learn new things and sometimes you need that kick in the pants to recognize it. i realized how...not negatively, but how muted/emotionless i had been this year after meeting someone who has now become extremely important to me. someone who made me feel that happiness that i had been missing for so long. i guess i just never realized how much i was missing until it all came back to me.

it's a little like coming back to life i suppose, seeing life the way it should be seen. makes me want to live again, not just exist.

(this could probably be better looking but i don't really care as much at this point)