Randomly came across this in some files that I had lost in the past. I made this in early 2010 as an extremely personal piece for myself, but I never posted it.

This was an especially cathartic set of pages meant to illustrate the self-destructive habits I had developed over the early years before the creation of this comic. Most of these were social or psychological habits that emanated from an abusive and dangerous lifestyle that I had no control over. In turn those psychological habits gave birth to physically harmful habits such as constantly picking at the calluses on my feet untill they bled. My sudden realization of the damage I was doing to my body is what inspired this comic. I think in that moment I overcame a notable barrier in my life. I made several changes, starting with my personal image. Slowly I began to love my mind and spirit, then I began to love my body. I took care of myself; I stopped picking at the calluses, I stopped biting my nails. I had been walking in a circle of self-hatred and compulsive penance because I genuinely hated myself for things that others had done to me. I walked until my feet bled, then walked more. I didn't even realize how deep-rooted my hate was or how long I had been walking until I one day I decided to pause and adjust my eyes...

All these years I had rejected and forsaken myself because of how filthy I felt. But in that moment of clarity, for the first time I can even recall in my life, I actually loved myself. I dropped to my knees and began to sob tears of passionate sorrow for what I had done. I kissed my filthy feet, I took a bath of hot water and apologies. I cleansed my mind and my body. I change my life.