tfw ur gf gets murdered right in front of u and u have to act like u hated her or u would have been murdered too and she begs u with her eyes to keep quiet so u can go on living without her and make a difference and find happiness and u sneak back to her gravesite later to scoop up her remains and hide them away proper so ur totalitarian government cant use them in terrible experiments that will result in her partially regenerating and being in agony for the rest of time